Titus Kaphar has a hypothetical for me.
“Maybe you have a challenge with your father because he was a reasonable, kind, loving man — and all of a sudden he started supporting Trump and you watched him change,” the writer-director tells me while contemplating a central theme in his new film, “Exhibiting Forgiveness.” “What does that conversation around forgiveness look like?”
Kaphar does this a few times throughout our chat: pointing to an experience he and I might share, so I can better understand some of his most conflicting thoughts portrayed in his debut movie. He usually doesn’t wait for me to confirm whether a particular example is actually true for me. (In the case of the MAGA Black dad, it’s not, but I understood his point.)
It seems enough for Kaphar that I’m engaged in the crux of what he’s saying about knotty topics we don’t talk about often enough, particularly within the Black community. What spurred his comment about the Donald Trump-supporting father, in fact, was my question about creating a film centered on forgiveness during a deeply unforgiving moment in pop culture, when people are sometimes written off for committing even the slightest transgression.
That gets even more complicated when the person whose faults you can’t seem to get around is a member of your family. “Exhibiting Forgiveness” compels the audience to sit with that scenario. In it, a successful painter named Tarrell (André Holland) aims to help his loving, God-fearing mother, Joyce (Aunjanue Ellis-Taylor), move out of her home and closer to him and his family. Tarrell’s efforts are interrupted by the appearance of his estranged father, La’Ron (John Earl Jelks).
At first, the audience doesn’t understand why Tarrell reacts to La’Ron with such disdain. We’re in the same shoes that Kaphar’s real-life wife and sons were in when they witnessed a similar moment in person. They didn’t know who his father even was, Kaphar tells me.
Much of “Exhibiting Forgiveness” is inspired by the filmmaker’s own life and experiences. Like Tarrell, Kaphar is well known as a painter for introspective works like “The Jerome Project” — the precursor to “Exhibiting Forgiveness” — and “The Vesper Project.” Joyce’s character is inspired by Kaphar’s grandmother, not his mother, but the parallel is there.
One day, in his own life, Kaphar and his family visited his grandmother in his hometown in Michigan. There, they found Kaphar’s father ― whom he hadn’t seen since he was 14 years old ― standing there waiting for him. At that point, Kaphar was in his 30s.
“Seeing him there was really emotionally disruptive,” the filmmaker explains. “But I walk into the house and my grandmother [is] sitting on the couch. My father follows behind. I’m becoming a bit frustrated and angry about everything. And I’m like, ‘I told you I don’t want to talk to you.’”
But his grandmother urged him to try anyway.
“I don’t know what relationship you have with your grandmother, but the relationship I have with my grandmother is, if she’s telling you something, it’s not questioned,” he tells me. “If she tells you you need to do something, you are about to do that.” (Same, of course.)
Still, Kaphar wouldn’t go through with it unless he had his camera on his father the whole time. “Let me record you, because there’s a lot you have to account for,” he recalls telling his father.
What followed, both in Kaphar’s actual story and in “Exhibiting Forgiveness,” was the unraveling of a fraught reunion between father and son ― the push and pull between a man who says he’s changed and is desperate to restart a relationship with his adult son, and another man who is just as determined to prevent it from happening.
The director ultimately felt the need to start writing the film as a means to better communicate with his own children.
“I needed to find a way to talk to my sons about me, where I come from, and why I don’t call my father ‘Dad,’” Kaphar says. “Why every time his name comes up, it becomes difficult for me. And I was committing myself to finishing, because my son is 17 and going off to college next year.”
As the film barrels toward some sense of a conclusion, difficult truths are prodded again and again. La’Ron, like Kaphar’s own dad, was a physically and emotionally abusive father with a drug addiction. When Tarrell was a child, La’Ron would bring him along to his job, where the boy performed manual labor and sustained brutal injuries.
In the present, Joyce recognizes La’Ron’s past wrongdoings, but tries in vain to use the Bible to teach her son about forgiveness. Meanwhile, Tarrell is so wracked with the pain of his childhood, and the turmoil that his father’s reappearance has brought to his personal and creative lives, he can barely sleep through the night without waking in agony.
Are we as a people actually willing to engage in a conversation about forgiveness? That’s a question Kaphar asks me after offering the anecdote about the father who loves Trump. He’s asking rhetorically, because he already has the answer.
“By and large, from both sides, we’re not,” he says. “And that’s not to minimize how difficult it feels to even consider that, with some of the rhetoric that is coming out. But it is definitely something that’s on my mind.”
That’s evident in “Exhibiting Forgiveness,” the work of a filmmaker who’s still grappling with everything he had to unlearn on his own journey toward extending compassion to his father. Like Tarrell, Kaphar had to come to terms with a prevalent understanding in the Black church community about forgiving someone who has harmed you.
It’s something he talked to Ellis-Taylor about ahead of her casting. Like her character, Joyce, Ellis-Taylor was raised in a Black church in Mississippi before moving up north, and had to wrestle with how that affected her deeply ingrained ideologies.
“Culturally, you’re so connected to that tradition, to that faith,” Kaphar says. “And yet, there are places where you’re like, ‘I can’t go there with you anymore. It’s not OK. It’s not OK to treat people that way. We can’t do that kind of thing. Love wouldn’t do that.’”
During an especially emotional scene between Joyce and Tarrell in “Exhibiting Forgiveness,” Tarrell brings up the biblical story of Abraham and Isaac as Joyce feverishly tries to get through to her son about walking in God’s path and offering his father grace.
Theologians have long examined the so-called exemplar faith of Abraham, who, upon God’s command, prepared his son Isaac to be sacrificed. Once God realized that Abraham was willing to obey him, he said Isaac’s life could be spared after all.
“When I held my son in my hands for the first time, I said, ‘There’s no way,’” Kaphar says. “I don’t know what that scripture means, but I know two things. A loving God would never ask you to do that. The second thing is, I would never do that.”
Still, the director grapples with the idea that religion should be shunned entirely. He thinks there’s too much about it that is significant to Black culture.
“I can recognize that if you don’t have faith as a part of your conversation about Martin Luther King, you don’t understand Martin Luther King,” Kaphar says. “If you don’t understand the Black church, you do not understand Martin Luther King. You just don’t.”
“Exhibiting Forgiveness” wrestles with similar nuances that influence the Black community, which is one reason many of us Black folks who screened the movie at the Sundance Film Festival earlier this year were so affected by it. The complexities it portrays — including a hard truth that “I can love you and also say what you did was wrong,” as Kaphar puts it to me — are ones we’re often almost afraid to discuss out loud.
“We don’t have the conversations because we recognize that a lot of the people in earshot won’t understand the nuance,” Kaphar says.
That’s true. Those outside the community, particularly white people, might not recognize why we struggle with some of the most complicated, personal truths that both threaten our facades and expose our vulnerabilities. They could also misconstrue our intent.
“We are in a situation where we know how much our community is criticized,” Kaphar continues. “Most of us learn that you just don’t do that in public. We’re quiet about those kinds of things because we love our mothers, we love our fathers, even in their flaws.”
And whether or not some of us admit it, we love the church.
“We got soul music,” Kaphar says. “We got blues. We got R&B. We got all of that from the Black church. It becomes really difficult to critique what we know the rest of the world is already critiquing.”
But it also feels dishonest.
“We have to, at least among ourselves, have an honest conversation about the negative impact of some of that stuff,” he agrees. “I tell people all the time, the people who loved me most in the world are people of faith. Therefore, I will never be the guy that disrespects people of faith.”
This isn’t an easy dialogue in any sense ― but it’s alleviating to have it with someone who’s actually willing to do so.
“We don’t want to put our community on blast, and I get that,” Kaphar says. “I totally, totally understand. But the result of that is, we live and walk with cognitive dissonance that is so heavy that we are arched over at the shoulders.”
